Hi and welcome to Radical Self, the podcast where we strip away the illusions that keepyou performing, pleasing and playing small, so you can reclaim the power that's alwaysbeen yours.I'm your host Thorildur, a tantric somatic coach, truth teller and a mirror for yourmost authentic expansion.Here we go deep, we get honest and we meet the parts of you that are dying to come alive.I'm your host, Sherry, Shari, and now I live in such an international setting thatit's like, I sometimes introduce myself as, hey, I'm Sherry, and then my friends who hearit go like, no, you're not, oh my god, I mean, no, I know, I know this drug so well, I'veeven, I've tried to be super, like, on low key with my name, being like, yeah, my nameis Thorildur, and like, da, da, da, and continue, and people are like, hold on, sayyour name again, and like, oh, can we not make this about my name?Yeah, no, absolutely.So I've, yeah, I've come to just make a big thing out of it, because people, so I canjust get it out of the way, straight away, and I'll just say, my name is Thorildur, I'llpronounce it Thorhildur, with a more English accent, and it means the female warrior ofcourage, and people are like, oh my god, wow, that's, yeah, exactly, that's the, that'sthe message.And then, then it's kind of quenched their thirst for the, for the name.Yeah, then you've got, like, you've got it out, out of the way.Yeah, and then we've got a lot of things.I'm like, Shadi from the Banana Boat song.Okay, I don't know that one, but that sounds fun.Yeah, we don't need to share that on the podcast.Well, it's on the podcast now, anyway, so people are going to hear it.Okay.So, we, okay, hold on, I'm going to give a backstory about how I know you, and thenI want you to tell me about yourself.So, we met in Portugal, that was the first time we met, right?Yeah.Yeah, I think so.At the Creatress Retreat, and we are both Vita coaches.So, we both bonded over that, and, I mean, I just instantly loved being around you, youare fun, it's so nice to be around you, the pictures you take are gorgeous, yeah, I justloved meeting you there, and then we met again in Costa Rica, and then again in Portugal.So, we've seen each other a bunch of times.Yeah, exactly.And then we shared a flat in Portugal, if I remember, and we did a whole cute, like,at home boudoir photography play session, that was so fun.It was.Yeah, that was super fun.So, I've gotten to know you professionally, and also just like chill at home, and I loveboth versions.Yes.So, that's how we know each other, and I am so excited to have you on my podcast, Radical.Thank you.It's Radical Self, and I would love if you could introduce yourself, what you do tomy audience, and, yeah, then we'll take it from there.Yeah, exactly.Yeah, thank you so much, first and foremost, for having me.I really, I love the name of your podcast, Radical Self, because in my world, everything'sabout, like, sovereignty and authenticity, and, like, cutting through the bullshit andthe stories that we tell ourselves, that other people tell ourselves, and, yeah, thenyou come back to your radical self, which is not always an easy path, and that's whyI think we are, you know, coaches and certified according to the Vita methodology, becauseit's so fucking hard to do it on your own, yeah, and it's also funny how you say we bondedover Vita, and then we met through the initiators, a training from the Temple of Radiance, andthat we immediately bonded.I feel like that's...That's the impression that I have with so many of our Vita sisters, because we're somany, and we're global, in any country, every city I go, I meet sisters, and it's just likewe have this, well, yeah, I'm gonna just say it, like, we have this way of radiating, movingthrough life, moving through blocks, and just being like, this is who we are, and, yeah,so, that's also a little bit about me, I really love radiating, I love making other womenradiate, and what I do...What I do, actually, is I'm a sexuality coach, I focus mostly on female sexuality, and I usethe modality of sensuality, embodiment, really, letting women come home to themselves, butsensuality is also sometimes, like, allowing yourself to be seen, and so I also use themodality of photography, I'm a boudoir photographer, that means, basically, that I take reallysexy pictures, and there's multiple reasons to do that.Whether it's body image healing, or reclamation, you go through a life transition, and youwant to have yourself captured again, or you just really want to have really sexy picturesof yourself, and you want to celebrate your body for what it is.So, yeah, my life is very pleasure-filled, I really love working, and that's also whatI do with my clients, is, like, how can we make your life, like, how can you live fromturn on?And turn on is not just going from one orgasm to another, but, like, really, like, makinglove to life.Yeah, I think that's, in a nutshell, who I am.I wasn't always like this, I must say, like, a lot of people, like, yeah, yeah, yeah.I used to believe I was the ugly duckling.I was bullied for, like, I had a lot of body hair on my arms, I still have, I don't haveit anymore on my legs, I got lasered when I was younger, when I was still, like, deepin the pain.But, yeah, I got bullied for the way I looked, for my fat ass, so to speak, for the bodyhair, yeah, so it was a pretty painful journey, I must say, and it's through, actually, self-pleasurepractices and pleasure practices that I was, like, really coming back to myself, to myradical self, to my sovereign, sensual self, and then, you know, I got to do photographybecause I really wanted to see my body for what it was and have it as a celebrationand that's where I got to combine now, like, where I get to combine both of these gifts,both the coaching around sexuality and sensuality as well as the photography, because thosewere the two things that really, like, changed my entire life, like, everything changed.I'm so different from who I used to be because of the stories, you know, like, ah, I'm ugly,I'm not good enough, like, I should get better grades, all of that.Now I'm like, well, actually, my life is pretty good.I mean, I remember, yeah, I've heard you share the story before and then when you saidit, I was like, what?Because you were, like, so sexy, so gorgeous, and I was like, how could you ever feel ugly?And, I mean, it just, it has nothing to do with how you actually look.It's just, like, and kids can be so mean, it can be, oh, it's such a tricky age.So, I'm just curious, because you said that self-pleasure...Self-pleasure was the way that you started to come home to yourself and then you foundphotography, so I'm just curious, like, was that just, like, when you were a teenager?Like, when was that in your, in your age?No, that was not when I was a, I mean, as a teenager, I was obviously masturbating, right?I think, and this is very important already to highlight in the story, is that for me,masturbation and self-pleasure are, like, two different worlds.One has nothing to do with the other.And so, as a kid, you learn, or very often, at least, we learn to masturbate in secrecyand it needs to be fast, because otherwise we risk getting caught.It needs to be really quiet, because otherwise, again, we could get caught, or we could becalled out and all of this, and so, we don't really learn, like, good ways of making loveto ourselves, because we have to be fast and we have to be quiet.Like, there's not really, if you look at the pleasure fundamentals, sorry?No, no, no, no, no, and, and I think we, we were speaking about this earlier as we werepreparing, it's, I always say the way you make love to yourself is the way you makelove to others, and, um, I personally love, like, these sensual, hour-long lovemakingsessions, like, don't get me wrong, I also love a good quickie every now and then, orlike, some spanking or the wilder side.Mm-hmm.But, like, I don't know.Like, my, my absolute dream when it comes to lovemaking is sensual and, like, and energeticeven, and there's spaciousness, and there's togetherness, and union, and it's just, like,hours and hours and hours, and, and because you're just enjoying each other, enjoyingyour own body, but also enjoying and worshipping the body that you have in front of you.Like, I don't think people really, um, value or put...Enough value in, like, there's a person sharing his or her body with you, you know?It's, it's insane, actually.It's, like, it's such a beautiful gift.It's so easily overlooked.And we don't...Yeah.Yeah, exactly, yeah.But that's also because we don't see it of ourselves, you know?It's, we, our body is so beautiful, it's so magnificent, it can, it can give so muchpleasure, but we just act on a functional level.Yeah.And so it's just anatomically too...The body's, like, doing something, and that may or may not lead to orgasm, and, and sothe moment we start seeing our own body as this beautiful vessel that is capable of creatinglife, and creating pleasure, and, and expanding pleasures way beyond what we think is evenpossible, that's where everything shifts, you know?And this happens in your own pleasure practices.That's, that's at least what it brought me, you know?It's not about the clit.And then you just, like, rub.Because we all know, like, x amount of circles, and then some strokes, and then you insert,and then...Exactly.We all know that one.Yeah.We all know that one.Okay, but I'm still curious on, because you say there's such a big difference betweenmasturbation and self-pleasure, and I can hear in your description of, like, how youview the sensuality of lovemaking, and that you have discovered that with yourself, but,like, how did you discover that?If it wasn't through Vita.Well, actually, it was not Vita yet.So, Vita, I did in 2024, and we're now in 2026, so about, like, two and a half yearsago, I started my Vita journey, but actually, my journey started with Mama Gina, ReginaTomaschauer, you know her?Okay, yes.Yeah, so...The book Pussy.Exactly.The book Pussy.Because a complete stranger at a business conference, super masculine, super, like, goal-orientedthings.Yeah.Yeah.You know, that was my previous life.Before my sexy era, I was a digital marketeer, and so I would do all of these, like, businessthings.And then this complete stranger, I still, like, have so much gratitude for him.I will never be able to thank him, because I have no idea who he is.He just comes and walks to me, and he says, you need to read this book.And so, I was, like, first in shock, because I'm, like, who do you think you are?Like, I was super offended.Oh, really?Now, Pussy is my...Pussy is my everyday, and I get zero offense by it.Like, I even celebrate when people share these stories or share, like, the story of theirpussy, for example.I'm like, yes.But when I was before my sexy era, I was so offended by this.Like, who are you?Talk to me about marketing, about storytelling, about, like, digital stuff, like, but notabout pussy?How dare you talk about this?How dare you?Exactly.Can you imagine me?Oh, my gosh.Feels like ages ago.I'm trying.Yeah, it's difficult.Yeah, no.Okay.Yeah, and so, I was still a good student, you know?I was like, okay, if he shares it with me, it's at a Tony Robbins conference, anythingor everything that anyone shares with me, I will do.You know?I was like, the good girl conditioning was pretty, pretty full on.Okay, I got it.And so, I go back home, order the book.Read it cover to cover, and it's just all about reclaiming being a woman.What does it mean to be a woman?Feeling your emotions.Not being too much.Not being too little.Doing what you want to do.Move your body.Let energy circulate.Include your sisters.Celebrate them.Like, this whole reclamation, it was like, everything in that book was like, as if itwas Chinese, and I don't speak Chinese, you know?So, I did not know about this world.The only thing I knew was getting good grades in uni, getting married, having a house.I didn't have kids, but that was definitely on the list, because those were things thatgood girls did.It's like, oh, and in my business, or in my work, if I want to be good, I need to goto these business conference, I need to make promotion, I need to make sure I see and talkto the right people to make promotion.That were the things that were on my mind.So, it was all to please, like, to fit in this certain image.It was never about, like, how can I make my life more fulfilled, more pleasurable, moreturned on.Never.Oh, my gosh.So, that book was like, oh.Yeah, I relate.Like, totally.And I'm just having the image, there's this term called the relationship escalator, whereit's like, you know, you go on a date, you, you know, then you become a couple, then youmove in, then you get engaged, then you marry, then you get kids in the house.Like, it's like an escalator.It's the same for me.It's like the good girl escalator.It's like, get good grades, get a good promotion, like a job, da-da-da-da, and then get married,get the same thing, kind of.But before the relationship escalator, there's the good girl escalator.Yeah.Yeah, absolutely.It's all about being in your pleasure and in your authenticity and radiance.No, no.I think, I think, yes, it's amazing to, like, let's celebrate these promotions and let'scelebrate, like, that we are these businesswomen and, like, if that's, if that's your thing,then absolutely.But I do feel like the pleasure-filled life and you being in your authentic self willnaturally, it will ripple through.Yes.But it won't just be to fulfill this perfect picture of you being this perfect woman whodoesn't even exist.You know, it's just models that you got modeled and everyone else gets different models intheir lives.But it's what you grow up with and what you see is like, oh, if I do these and these andthese steps, that makes me successful or it makes me desirable even a lot.Yeah.Or it makes me sexy or it makes me more attractive or it's easier for me to find a partner thatway.All of these crazy stories that we tell ourselves just so that we would be lovable.It's easier for me to find a partner.I think that's the key one.Yeah.Yeah, absolutely.Absolutely.We're terrified of being alone.Yep.Of not being seen, of not receiving love.So we would do anything.And I get it.Yep.And I get it.And if you don't have, like, people like us, for example, in your life who call bullshiton this.Yes.Then of course, of course you will fall into that pattern.And that's what happened to me.But it was so painful the moment, like, at first, reading that book was like, it waspainful to realize that, I think back then I was 26, 27.And I was like, holy fuck, I've been living in this female body for like 27 years almost.Yeah.And I don't even know what it means.Yeah.I didn't, I did not have a clue.Uh-huh.And so it was really painful.But she gave so many good tools.And like, it was a pretty, like, there is.Yeah, it's a great tool.Like, on all the practices and the, the, like, shares are so amazing.Yeah.And so she was also referencing to Leila Martin, who's a really close friend of Mama Gina.Yeah.And I was like, okay, whatever this woman says, I do.She's, she's my god.I'm a diva, Gina.I'll do it all.Exactly.You know, I was like doing her swamping practices.I was anything, you know, I was celebrating.I was celebrating.And.And then I looked up Leila Martin because she was one of the recommendations.Yeah.And I did her, I think it was called Sacred Sexuality or, yeah.So I, I think back in the days it was like a monthly membership and every month wouldhave a different theme and it would be around money, about body, self-love, you know, allof these things.And then every month, so it would have a team, a theme, but then there would also be likeweekly practices with her senior coach.Yeah.And then I would have a lecture about the theme with herself.And I must say at first I was like, holy fuck, this is very American.Because it was like, for me as a newbie to be like, like pleasure practices.What is that even?You know, it was very far out.And they would go all in, you know, you know, Leila, she doesn't hold back.She's like, she starts laughing and it's like, ah, can we do this?Can we be more?And, you know, she's just, she's just very alive, you know, which is inspiring.Amazing.But back then I was like, okay, I think this is a little too American for me.Yes.Because you're from Belgium.But I, I'm from Belgium.Yeah.And I was very like conservative, you know, very reserved, let's say.And, and it's an early stage of my, you know, discovery myself.But don't get me wrong.I still did the practices and I got a lot of tips from it.And a lot.Because you're a good girl.Because I was a good girl.I'm going to do the practices.Like the good girl just moved from the business corporate to pleasure, pleasure academy.Yeah.I mean, actually, yes, definitely.And the thing is, I think what makes a difference in like doing it for someoneor doing it because you're a good girl needs to be fed.And it's coming from authenticity and from this radical self perspective.I think.What makes all the difference is because it was embodied.So we would do practices, really moving your body through emotions.If you would feel stories, then just can you bring safety and compassion and self-lovewhile you were doing your practices?So it's not just therapy where you talk about things and you rewrite stories from your mind,which is very, like, it's very powerful work.But it.Like.It would never have had the same impression on me as it did right now,because it was all like it was weaving in with embodied practices and movement and sound and breathing.So there was a shitload of liberation, basically, on all levels.Yes.And and that just really brings you back home instead of like to your good girl.Right.So because it's embodied, because you're moving your body and you're breathing and you're doing all these practices,you feel different.It's not just like you know things to be different.You feel them in your body.Yeah.Yeah.And it's like that's when your intuition comes online.That's when you can tune in with your higher self instead of there's the good girl, your inner child, maybe.But then you have your higher self, the one who knows better, the one who has your highest potential as a North Starinstead of safety as a North Star, because, yes, we need to have this this part.This voice in ourself that keeps us safe, it's important to honor it.Like that's what Leila also teaches us is like, can we recognize that we have all of these different voices?I always say like it's senators in a boardroom or something.Yeah.And and it's like the throne of the heart practice that we teach our clients as well.Like your heart is is a boardroom, basically.And all of these judgments and like the the counselors in in our minds.Yeah.Uh.Who have advice on pleasure, advice on business, advice on should I do this trip or not?Yeah.Should I fuck this guy or not?Should I go and like all of these things, you know, we have all of these advisors in our minds and like we visualize them sitting in the throne of our hearts.Yeah.And we invite them all, like all of them are welcome.But as with anything in the politics, I think there's always one party that has a say about a certain topic.And then the others are like welcome to share their perspective, but we don't necessarily need to take it on as truth.So our good girl is also welcome.But she doesn't need to be like sharing.Like she doesn't need to be she's not the queen.Exactly.She's just in the room sharing her voice and we give her love and compassion because she's there for a reason.She's had her experiences and and now it's time for a higher self to really show us.Yes.Yeah.meditations, visualizationssometimes bandrasembodimentyeah exactlyand that's when we really feel likeis this my good girl or is this myhired selfhey babeif you want to stop fantasizing about non-monogamyand finally start living itwith full safety, respect and clarityI would love to invite youto my upcoming courseLife Beyond Monogamyyou will learn the step by step of how tonavigate the challenges in daily lifeof loving openly from someonemewho has been happily polyamorous withmy husband for over 8 years nowin that time we have been throughseveral additional romantic relationshipslovers, breakups, breakthroughsand we've always found a way backto ourself and each otherif you sign up for the waitlistnow you will benefit from earlyaccess bonuses as wellas the founders ratewhich is the lowest price this course will ever beyou will find the link in the show notesand if you have any questionsjust send me a message on Instagramand I would love to hear from youyesI love that you're describing thisbecause I can imagine for many people listeningthey probably recognize thisthe inner voice that saysno no no this is too much, this is too loudbut I love that you're describingthe process ofnot dismissing that voicebut shifting intothat sovereign selfwhere there's a queen or a higher selfthat is running the showand the others are kind ofpaid actorsthey are voices that are heardbut they're not the ones in chargeyeahand this is so tricky becausefor example when I went throughmy divorceit was very hard for meto tap into my higher selfbecause there were so many dynamicsthat were just really not healthy for meand I just got so far awayfrom my own truthI did not know what is right and what is wrongbecause it was justI let myself goand I didn't take responsibilityin speaking up for my higher selfin that relationship very oftenand I see it in my clients as wellthey are afraidthat they will not be lovedif they speak their truthso it's more comfortable sometimesto speak from that good girlbut in the long runalso in relatingin romantic relationshipsor just any connectionthe more you speak from that good girlthe more you act from herthe more disconnected you become from yourselfand therefore also fromthe people you're actually connecting withbecause it's not genuineyou're just creating an illusionand to keep that aliveso much energyneeds to go into thatit's insaneit's energy that I'd rather spend on pleasurethan the rest of the thingsyeslike amen to thatamenoh my goshI love itok so you found self pleasureand then you became embodiedand then you could feel your intuition moretap into that higher selfand make decisions from that placeinstead of the good girland so okI'm torn between wanting to go into the photography laneor embodiedversus non-embodiedbecause that was one of the things that I was likethis is something that we were talking aboutwhen you went to the Esther Perel conferenceyeahso you can choosephotography or conferencewell I think we can combine bothbecause photography for meso how I see photography is not justtaking beautiful picturesI always say to my clients that's a givenyou get beautiful picturesbut it's an experienceI don't go from one pose to anotherI make it an embodied practicea sensuality practiceso that when you take on a poseyou get a sense of purposeyou get a sense of purposeyou get a sense of purposeyou get a sense of purposeyou get a sense of purposeand you close your eyesand you really let yourself meltin that poseyou take on your queenyour higher selfand you really let that energy dripinside of youand you let it circulateand then your sensual self comes onlinebecause you start stroking yourselfyou breathe deeperyou awaken your sensesyou smelland that is justthat's sensualityand I take pictures of every thingevery little step of that processand of course yeahI guide women if they're likeif they're doing somethingand it looks weirdI will guide them into a different posebut will not be likeoh hey can you do thisand can you do thatit's not that staticbecause I really want womento feel a transformationand not just know how to poseyou knowyeahand photography for meIafter reading those booksand going through thesacred sexuality program of LeilaIat some point in my lifeat some point just likewas in the gardenwith my family-in-law back thenand I was likeI had this epiphany momentlike I need to have a naked photo shootback then I didlike now I'm a boudoir photographerlike I am in this nicheback then I didn't even know that existedI hired a wedding photographerfor my picturesbecause I didn't even knowthere was this sexysensual type of photographyI just knewI feel so good in my bodyit feels so good to moveeven if there is likereally heavy emotionslike cryingor angersadnessI stilllike loved moving through itbecause at the end of that tunnelthere was a lifenessthere was reclamationthere was a homecomingyesand soI told this wedding photographerlike I told her my storyand I tell herit's very atypicalbecause oneI will be nakedand twoI will be moving a lotand dancingand jumpingmaybe screamingI don't knoware you up for thisand she goesI don't knowI don't knowhell yesand thenthat was ityou knowI didn't tell anyonebecause I was likethe momentI tell my husbandback thenor I tell my friendsthey will tryand persuade meor likethey will get in my headand I don't want thisthis feelsrightso radicalI will do itexactlyand I told peopleafterwardswhen I got back homeI was likeok yeahI did thisand blah blah blahI don't knowwhat the results will bewhat this will bebut this wasso amazingand it was so amazingI fell in lovewith myselflike never beforewhen I saw those picturesI knewI had this visceralimprintof the embodimentduring this sessionbecause I was likeyeahI was likewild nakedin a rice fieldlikewas it a rice fieldyeahlike a corn fieldin BelgiumI'm in Baliso rice fieldis on top of mindbut it was a corn fieldandyeahit's just likeseeing these picturesstill up until todayI'll look backat those picturesand seethe things that I sawwas not onlymy beautiful bodybecauseyesI have scarsin my bellyand Ilikethere is still storiesaboutor there were storiesabout the size of my bellyor whateverwhich is ridiculousbut you knowwe all carry those storieswhat I sawand what I keep seeingin these picturesis the smileon my faceand justthis glowit just dripsfrom those picturesandit's just likeyeahlikewhy do we spendso much timehating on our bodieshating on ourselveshating on our liveswhenactuallywe just need tocome home to ourselvesand feelhow alivewe can beif we choose toyou knowand that's alsoactuallyto segueintoNew Yorkmy trip to New Yorkwith Esther Perelwhich I knowyou wanted to talk aboutyeahtoact as ifyou were therewell okaybefore we do thatcan I pausebecause I want to sharemy storyyesbring itabsolutelyI've never sharedthis beforeoh my goshI'm just likeoha debuta debutbecause just hearing youtalk aboutthis spontaneous momentwhere you thoughtI need to take picturesof myself nakedand I don't want totell anybodyI don't want to getI don't want to getanybody messingwith my headyeahbecause I hadthe exact samemomentan ideawhenI wasfresh in theVita programso I was alreadydoing the programpleasure practiceswith you knowLeila Martinweeklyweekly masturbationor self pleasure practicesyou knowfeeling all these feelingstuning into tantraI mean I had beenon the tantric pathforI would saythree yearsI mean that'swhat the wordcame to me as wellbeforewhen you're talkingabout feeling the emotionsand moving through itthat's really the magicof tantra for meandI had justcome out of a relationshipthat Iheldonto theit looked likethe ideaand dreamthat we would hosta retreat togetherand thenwe ended upbreaking upand the first thingI did wasbook a retreat venueand choose to hosta retreatlike four months laterand I didbut in the timebetweenI felt sosovereignlike one fromlike leaving therelationshipI was fresh in VitaI was feeling my bodyso muchand enjoying itso muchand moving throughso much stuck energythat I thoughtoh my goshI want to havepictures of metakenand the interestingthing wasbecause I was alsolike startingyou knowto create a websiteand trying tolike build thisbrand imageI was likeyes I want thatbut I alsoI mostly wantpictures of meand I don't knowwhat I'm going to dowith themI don't knowwhere I'm going topost themor if I willever post themand I had metthis photographerat like aNew Year's partyand he knewthe ownersof the retreat venueand we went thereand it wasso amazinglike hehe does thislike and hewe've hired himlater for sex partiesand stuffso he'swe have a greatbodyand it wassuch a beautifulmomentbecause we wereit felt like atranceit felt like aceremonybetween the twoof usand I rememberone momentwhen likefirst we didsome yogalike I wasdoing yogaand he wastaking picturesof me doingthat becausethere was yogaat the retreatand so that'swhat I wantedand thenI wantedpictures of mekind of likeas the retreathostlike metalkingso he wasasking mequestionsso he waslike askingmeyou knowhow do Ikeep myheart opento myyou knowthe motherof mychildthat Ihave thisweirdrelationshipwithso he wasasking meand I realizednow he waslike pullingme intomy zoneof geniusso I wastalkingI was likestraighttalking tohimto hisheartand I couldfeel hisenergyrespondingbecausethese werethe wordsthat heneeded tohearand thenhe puton thisreallylikesensualsexymusicand IwantedtoI knewI waslikenow Iwant togetnakedand Inoticedthatthere wassomethingholdingmebackand IrealizedI feltlike Ineeded toask himforpermissionand notask himforpermissiontotake upspacebut becauseIwanted toexpressmy ownsexualenergyand Iwasbasicallygettingconsentfrom himto bein thatsexualenergyand himhavinglike himtakingpicturesand hewas likego foritsoand itwas sofunit wasso funand the pictureswere sofuckinghotI've seenthoseyeahI thinkthose arethe onesI sawrightI probablyshowed youall ofthemyeahI thinkyou'veprobablyseenthem allnowyeahI thinksoyeahyeahI rememberbeing likegirluse thesewomen needto feelthistransmissionyeahthe thingthat I thinkis sobeautifulabout thisbecauseat thelast retreatI hostedwe tookpicturesof theparticipantsat thefirst dayand thelast dayand whenI heardyou talkaboutlike howyou guidewomen inyourphotoshootsand howyou makethem feelgood intheir bodiesand likehaving themtouchthemselveslike justeven juststrokingtheir neckand havingthem tapinto theenergy ofsensingthemselveslike reallyfeel thetouchthat issomagneticand beautifullike whenwomen canbe intheirownbodyfeelinginstead ofhow doI lookthat issosexyabsolutelyyeahthat's itthat's itcoming topresenceandadoringand worshippingyour ownbodyrightand Ithinkthat'swhatlike inancienttraditionsthat'swhatthatwasspillingmywaterthat'swhatwasdonerightintheseintempleswe wouldjustbe thereas sistersas welldoing thisfor eachotheryou knowwe wouldwe wouldcelebrateeach otherwe wouldworshipeach otherand seethe goddessinside ofeach andevery oneof usand itwasn'ttabooit wasn'tyeahsomespaceswere sexualbut otherthan thatit wasjust likereally tolet usdrop intoour feminineessenceandlikelettingabsolutelyyeahlikewe dobreastmassageson eachotherand likeyonieggone nextto anotherand there'sthat'sthe thingI rememberwhen I wasin Belgiumlikelivingfull timein BelgiumI movednowyeahI've beenlikelivingabroadfor thelastthreeyearsbutbeforethatI woulddoinpersonsessionsI wasnotdoingonlinethingsonlyinpersonand I wouldjust dobreastmassagesingroupandwomenwouldcomeinwithlikeascaredandtinyheartandbelikewhatamIgonnadoamIgonnabenakedandlikeholyfuckthiswassotransformativeIcan'tbelieveI'vebeenmissingoutonthissamewithYoniakI'mlikeI'mdoingthisIreadabookofBettyDodsondoyouknowBettyDodsonyeahyeahsolikesheunfortunatelypassedawaybeforeIcouldattendoneofhersessionsI'mstillgrievingthatpartandespeciallybecauseinEstherPerelwhen Iwastherea fewweeksagoinwaslikeaclosefriendofBettyDodsonordidaworkshopandIwaslikeohRossdamnitisitRossyesuhRuthRuthumwhat'shernameRossisliketheRossIthinkthat'shernameyeahIthinknowitisindeedDodsonwhodoesitIactuallydon'tknowIhaven'tbeenlookingintoitanymoreokayanywayanywaysoshewasexplainingshewassharingaboutthesesessionsandIfeltsomuchgriefthat Ididn'tget todo 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asuddenfindthatthere'swhattheyweredoingwasjustsonotwhattheyreallywantedandthenyeahhelpingthemdiscoverthatandgivingthemlikeallthetoolsthatarelikemaybeyoushouldtrythismaybeyoushouldtrythatandit'slikepositionsit'swaysofcommunicatingit'sdecorationit'slikeit'ssobroadyouknowbutyouneedtobeawareofityoudon'tknowwhatyoudon'tknowyeahokaysoyou'reinmissjaya'sworkshopi'minmissjaya'sworkshopanditwasaitwasalikeaworkshoprightitwasnotalecturebecausetherewasmanylecturesatevenbutthiswasaworkshopbutapparentlynoteveryoneisawareofthatevennotevenintheworldofyouknowwherewewereinyouknowitwasallacademicstherapistspsychologistsyounameitsoiwasthereundertheassumptionandagainit'sanassumptionitwasnotruthitwaslikeeveryoneisgoingtobelitupandfullyinitandsotheyinvitedustostandupbecausetherewerechairswhichialreadythoughtwaslikeworkshopwithchairswithjayathat'sweirdyeahagreewhere 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mynoteboardherepleasurefilledlikeyouwantedthispodcasttobepleasurefilledthat'sthethingifthat'syourmissiontomakeyourlifeandthelivesofthepeoplethatyouservepleasurefilledweknowthatthewayisthroughthebodynotthroughthemindandithinkit'sespeciallyinterestingtonotethatbecauseyoujusthearhowexpensiveit istostayinnewyorklikehowmuchthesepeoplehaveinvestedtobethereinthisroomandtheyareintheworkshopattendingmissjaya'sworkshopandsheisguidingthemandtheyarenotreceivingthefulltransmissionbecausethey'renotgivingthemselvesthepermissiontofeelitexactlyyeahthinkaboutyeahtheseareacademicswhoaretheretolearnabouthowtohavegoodrelationshipshowtohaveamazingsextheyareliterallysittingin frontofoneoftheworld'smostexpertwomeninthistopicandtheyarenotgettingityeahnoexactlyyou didyeahI didand that'sthe thingyeahI understoodthe assignmentyeahit's funnybecause Ia fewmonths agohere inBaliI wasinvitedas aspeakeron stageat aneventandtheyasked meto talkintowhat'sthenumberonesexingredientsandI wasspeakingintothiswithfriendsand 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lotofwomenwantwejustwanttosurrenderandbetakenyouknowwewantourmanorwomantobelikefullytakingusandshowingusallthecornersoftheroomdevourmeyeahIjustwanttobelikeohIwanttofeellikeyou'remylikeI'myoursbutthensurrenderingfor meis notstarfishingit'snotjustlayingthereit'salsonotperformingit'salsonotjustdoingsomethingtolookacertainwayortolookdesirableorattractiveandsoyouneedtogiveyourselfpermissiontoactivelyreceivewhatthatmeansisthatyoustilluseyourbreathtowhenyoufeellet'ssayamanwouldbepenetratingmewithhispenisifI'mjustlikereceivingsurrenderingitcouldjustbelikeI'mlayingthereandyeahmaybeI'mmovingbutlikeactivelyreceivingisreallyfeelingallofthatenergyfromhiscockandfeelinglikethisisnotjustacockthisisyourconsciousnessenteringmeandthisisthegatewaytomypleasurelikereallytransformingtheextraordinarylensit'snotjustananatomicalbodypieceit'ssomethingthatisjustlikeitwantsmeit'sgonnafulfillmeandthenIgivemyselfpermissiontoandthisisimportantifyouwanttounderstandenergeticlovemakingandyouwanttogotherebecauseanyoneiscapableoffeelingthatbutyouwithenergeticlovemakingyouneedtosurrenderandgiveyourselfpermissiontodoitbecauseyouknowhowtotakethatenergyfromthecockbeinsuchdevotionofthisspecialactinitselflettingitgoallthewayupthe,toyourheartinfusingitwithlovecompassionpassionwithradiancelightingupthatenergyandwhathappensthenisifyou'rejustactivelyandlikeifyou'rejustlayingthereandyou'resurrenderingyou'refeelingthesensationsofthecockinyourpussybutwhenyougiveyourselfpermissiontoreallyfeelthepenetrativetouchof apenisinsideofyouitwilljustburstoutyourheartitwilljustmovebecauseitlooksweirdorbecauseyouwillmakeweirdsoundslikeyouknowandsowhenIbecauseI'msingleandsoInoweverynowandthenwillhavealittlebitmorelongtermloversorandthenIwillexplainthatImightmakereallyweirdsoundsmybodymightmoveinweirdwaystheyloveitbecausetheyseemegiveandthethingistheydon'tlovethemovementsbecausesometimesit isreallyspasticImeanIdon'tknowIdon'tlookatmyselfwhenIdoitbecauseitwouldtakemeoutbuttheylovehowIgivemyselfpermissiontofeelpleasureyesanditalwaysalwayscomesbacktopermissionyesandlikeyouhavinglikeyougivingyourselfthatpermissiontoactonwhat'saliveandjustlikeyouweredescribinglikeI'mfeelingitwithyoulikewhenyou'reinthatfeelingthatpenetrationandyou'reactingonwhat'saliveImeanyouaregoingtobemoaningyouaregoingtobemovingyourbodylikebecauseyouareenrapturedyouareinitandtheywillgethypnotizedandmesmerizedbyyourmovementsandyourembodimentwhichwillmakethemevenmorepresentevenmorefocusedwhichwillincreasetheenergyandit'sgoingtobethishugepositivefeedbackwearedefinitelythesamegirlIthinkwearebecausealsowhat'sreallyfunnyisthatifit'snottantricloverswhodon'tnecessarilyhavetheawarenessofwhattantriclovemakingmeanstheygoamIdoingthisandtheyfeelsospecialit'slikeholyfuckwowIdidnotknowmycockwascapableofdoingthisandIknowit'saco-creationrightit'sboththeircocktheenergyandlikebutlikeifIdon'tplaymypartifI'mjusttherelikestarfish orjustreceivingas Iknewin thepastorgoingtoperformthatwouldneverbethereactionbecauseit'slikebecauseIgosofullinandpleasurebecomesmynorthstarthat'swhentheygolikeholyfuckwhoareyouthat'srightohmygoshgirlIcouldtalktoyouforeverIlovehearingthisI'mlikemybody'salllitupjustlikehearingallthesedescriptionsyeahokayhowdoyouwannaleaveourlistenerslikewhatdoyouwannasharewiththemasafinalmessageorwhatwouldyoulovetoinvitepeopleintoyourworldyeahumIalwayssaymakepleasureyournorthstarespeciallywhenitcomestosexualitywejustweretaughtbecauseofpornandbecauseofpastloverswhoneverlikeneitherofthosearegoodpleasureschoolsumumumbutbecausethat isthe onlythingthat weknowwewechaseorgasmsor wechasecertainsensationsthat weassociateaspleasurableumbutwiththatandthat'salsosomethingthatJayasaidintheconferencewithEstherPerelthereisnoceilingtoyourpleasureandandit'struebecauselikeevenjustbelievingthatlikejusttakingthesentencethere'snoceilingtoyourpleasurelikekeep thatin yourmindnext timeyou'rehavingsexyeahabsolutelythere isnoceilingandandI'mlikeholyfuckIthoughtIalreadyknewa lotandthenMissJayasayssomethinglikethatandI'mlikewowyou'rerightIcan'twaitforwhat'snextandandthathappenswhenyoumakepleasureyourNorthStaryouknowwhenyoudon'tgoit'sit'sMargotAnandtoldmeIshe'sdefinitelymybestfriendI'mherfriendsoshetoldmetobecompletelydetachedandthat'sagainthesamethinglikedon'tgochasinganorgasmoracertainsensationjustbecomepresentwithwhatistherefeelhearsmelldropintosensualityawakenopenallofyoursensesrewritethestoriesinyourheadthatyou'retoomuchthatyou'retoouglythatyou'retoolittletothisrewritethosestoriesawakenyoursensesandthengiveyourselfpermissiontojustexpandbecausethereisnoceilingandforthatobviouslyifweexpandlikeit'slikethisnuclearbombsometimesIalsothinklikeholyfuckifIgodeeperinmergingwiththishumanbeinghereIwillliterallyexplodeorIwilleatthispersonlikeyouknowallofthesethingsandthat'sanervoussystemthingyouknowweneedtocreatesafetyinsideofourselvesthatwewillnotgooverboardwewillnotloseitourheartwillnotliterallycrackopenyouknowit'ssillybutit'sactuallyreallytrueourminddoesn'tknowbecauseit'suncomfortablebecauseit'sunknownsoyeahandthisiswhatwedorightthisiswhatwedoinourcoachinglikemaketheunknownknownmakeitcomfortablebecauseyourbrainyourminddoesn'tknowwhatistrueandwhatisnottruesoeverythingthatyouandIforexampleteachinourcoachImeanIdon'tknowaboutyounecessarilybutwhatweteachaccordingtoyeahtheVitamethodislikethepracticesthatwedotheprocessesthatwegothroughwithmindsetworkaswellislikejustworkingwithyourdesireandactingasifit'salreadytherebecauseitispossibleyeahohmygodgirlIlovetalkingtoyouthiswasamazingsoIthinkwecouldgoonforhoursIknowwecoulddidn'tevenshareanythingaboutSRPL'seventImeanhardlyagainandweobviouslyneedtohostaworkshoporaretreatorsomethingsolikeyouwon'tgetenoughofmesoIwillputyourlinksandstuffintheshownotessopeoplecanfindyouyesabsolutelyyeahI'dlovetohearactuallyifthere'sanylikedownloadsfromthisalreadyfromourchatIdothatonmyownpodcastaswelllikeifumyeahI reallylovehearingwhat'saliveinthefieldumyeahbecauseit'sallgoodinformationandumandwemeanitweactuallywantyoutomessageuswe'renotkiddingyeahabsolutelyyou knowyeahI always saywe're goddessesand we're alsojust humanbeingsand sometimesI feellikeyou knowwhen youhave apodcastorwhen youareyou knowwhen youdothethingsthatwedoit'slikewe'renotunattainableyou knowwe're justlikehumanbeingsdoingreallyfreakingsexyandamazingjobsbutwe'realsojustsuperapproachablerightwe'realsojusthumansexactlybutalsogoddessjustsayingyeahgoddessandhumanpartgoddessparthumanexactlyalrightthank youso muchit wasmy pleasurethank youfor havingmeifthisepisodemovedsomethingin youIwouldlovetohearitsendmeamessageoninstagramatrisewithorhildurorfollowanyofthelinksintheshownotestoexploreotherwayswecouldrisetogetheruntilnexttimekeepchoosingtruthpowerandyourownradicalself
